PeBBles

2007-10-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

After a While By Veronica A Shoftal

After a while you learn...
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman
not the grief of a child

And you learn
to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way
of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting
for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn and you learn
with every good-bye you learn.

2007-10-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

it hurts so much.

i never wanted u in the first place.
u came after me with all your sweet words,
made me fall head over heels with you.
made me suffer in the excuse of giving you time to settle stuff,
made me forgive you,
then lie to me and neglect me,
then ask for forgiveness,
then decide that you cant handle all of it,
and ask me to let you go.

you think too highly of me.
i m just a simple girl,
longing for a simple love.
forgiving i can do,
being forsaken or unwanted i cant handle.

now i have to go back to God,
begging for HIM to renew me again,
to fill that emptiness in my heart,
an emptiness that I thought I overcame,
but failed again when u came along the way.
I realise how weak I m,
and how much I need HIM.
I m sorry, O LORD.
Let me hide under your wings again,
let me stay there for comfort, for refuge, for shelter, for love.

The pain is too much to bear,
I know i will survive this,
but at this pt of time,
it just hurts real bad,
esp if i still need to see you once in a while.
i just hope time will pass faster,
so that my wounds will be healed faster.
I just hope such wounds wun appear again,
I m getting old to handle this.

you know,
i seldom regret things in my life,
but i really regret the last 5 months for happening,
despite the joy,
the pain was so much more.
it was never worth it, and it will never be.

2007-07-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

i failed SJB again.

the last time i failed by 1cm.

this time i failed by 3cm.

how stupid can I get sometimes.

I guess God just wants to keep me by His side longer.

But God, please let me go for my Bangkok trip.

Please!

And please see me thru the exam next week!

You brought me into this job, please see me thru it now!

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I now know running away from you is no use.

But there are decisions and things that I have done while running away that is irreversible.

Lord, I just pray that you will not force me to give up this r/s yet but rather let him come see the light thru me.

Give me strength and hope and love!

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Lord, I feel your peace now and the hope you have given me!

Let me learn to never stray again!

2007-06-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

my life is like a drama.

i dun like it this way.

tell me how?

i am just a normal girl who yearns to be loved.

why cant my life be less complicated?

sighZ.

maybe i should try doing things like what she did.

then maybe i can see God faster than i wun have so much problems.........

why do i always have to meet with problems like these!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sighZ

2007-05-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

many things have happen in the past 3 months.

things that confuse me,
things that make me question why the world is this way,
things that make me wake up with a big smile on my face,
things that made me realise why i had to go through some stuff in life to appreciate the things that I am suppose to get in future,

i didnt realise their were so many undercurrents when u begin work and that u must guard urself in whatever u do, say or behave, i use to hope that i can just stand on the fence and not bother but i realise this requires constant guard against what u say and the people u hang around with, then i feel this will render me superficial because aint friends suppose to stand up for each other? then i realise that there was a difference btw frens and colleagues. why must there be a difference i asked, no answer came. i thought if everybody just try to get along, wun the world be a more wonderful place? i dun understand. i really dun. maybe its time i grew up and learn to face this world with a mask but then again aint i suppose to put away all masks? haiZ. like what a fren like to say, "life is tough" and i guess it will continue to be, so one must learn to find joy and contentment in one's everyday life to carry on.

i will try... hopefully i will get there safe and sound.

haha just typing nonsense to throw out some thoughts in my head. i know i probably sound incoherent but i guess these are the things running thru my head recently. heeZ.

smile pple!

and God,
i want to let you know,
i will nv turn my back on you,
i just lost my way,
i dunno if i want to find my way back coz sometimes being your child is so tiring,
but i know the rewards i will find in the end is worth the effort,
and my love for you should help me channel enough energy to last thru,
but sometimes, in reality, things are easier said than done,
but that doesnt mean i will not try,
just give me some time.
please Daddy!

2007-04-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

Just some photo updates of my book-in book-out life now... haha....

2007-01-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

STUPID PRISON!

i still haven gotten my letter and my contract is ending in JAN!

more efficiency pple, i need to see more efficiency!

O my goo-de-ness! i cant stand it anymore.

argh. tucks at hair!

haiZ. i need more money. i m like ultra ultra ultra broke, i only have like $40 till 25th! payday pls come faster. haha. and i saw many things i wanna buy! argh! found this shop online that is damn cool, the tops are nice and cheap (Cheryl! i think u will love them leh. website is www.theteraclub.com) , the dresses too! argh. i need more money. haha. plus i m going KL from 2-4 feb. more money gg out. people, pls start contributing to the lovedaniellefund.com. thanks so much! haha.

i m ultra bored at work now coz today i m suppose to be training somebody to take over my jobn when i leave, so ultra bored just staring at her work. haha.

i m really looking forward to tonight! HANA KIMI!

Gillian! frh and the ella will be in TM on 28 Jan leh at 7pm. haha want to go? heeZ.

ok la thats all la. sighZ. back to work!

P.S. i feel like i sound like some 13- year-old talking. shucks!

2007-01-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

shucks.

i m turning 23 this year.

suddenly i feel so old.

arghs!

2007-01-02T17:49:00.000+08:00

its tough.

frenships, one of the best things on earth yet it can also be one of the most heart-breaking thing.
i know its ironical that after thanking all my frens for being there in my life that i blog about the heartache that frenships have brought.

But its true, i dunno why i m feeling this way now but i m.

can good girlfrens really still be good girlfrens after they get attached?

all i can say from experience, its not possible. its never the same.

when u are out with ur gf, and their bfs come along, u are immediately no. 2. u walk behind, u talk to urself, u even sit alone. u no longer have 2 frens (if u are good frens with the guy as well). u only have 1. and seriously, is not even 1 coz u are no longer playing the same role in their lives but they still play the same role in urs hence u actually only have 1/2 a fren left.

u know i m so disgusted with the way things are that i think i m afraid i will become like them that i will neglect my other frens if i ever get attached again that i m thinking maybe growing old alone may not be such a bad idea. haha. yeah this coming from danielle.

maybe its not worth investing in frenships at all. maybe its all abt urself and God and nobody else. maybe frens aint as impt as i thot them to be. maybe, just maybe.

2006-12-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

Christmas is over.

2007 is on the way,

Many things have happen this year and I am glad I have survived thru it all with help from God, my family and of coz my frens. sound so emo right. well its raining now and i m freaking cold in the office. cant i be a little emo??!!

went for a chalet from 20th to 22nd Dec with my JC pals. haha had great loads of fun. They are the crappiest pple I know and yet they always say I m the crappiest one. haha. what irony. we had a BBQ this time round, and they refuse to try my coke-marinated chicken wing, they kept saying that they will just eat up everything else but that, but in the end they still ate it what except that the rain came down so we only BBQ like 1/4 of the wings maybe less. haha. had a lot of fun there, dunno when it will be that we will have our next class chalet. we are all growing old, maybe the next time we have a gathering it will at some high class restaurant. YEAH RIGHT! them?!! haha. but maybe we can look forward to going overseas. really glad I have frens like them to always make me smile no matter how crappy my day may be.

celebrated Cheryl's bday at Big O. had a good time laughing over the 21 presents! haha. u better use all of them, MS TAN! haha.

hmmm. i think i want to end off by thankin some impt pple in my life.

DENISE WONG
i think there wun be enough thank yous to show u how much u have done for me for the last 21 years of my life, there may be times when we quarrel and all, but i m glad that we have grown closer as we grow older. Thank You for so willingly being my sister. heeX.

KAREN NG XINYI
for always being there whenever I need a listening ear, though we dun think on the same frequency (heez) but yet u never minded whenever i go on and on abt my insecurities. u are one of the best girlfrens any girl can have.

CHARMAINE GOH SIMIN
i like your calm whenever we plan stuff together or do stuff together, like nothing ever gets u ruffled up. You have taught me many things thru our frenship, like the value of girlfrens and drinking! haha. i m glad, I went to 'confront' abt not liking me that very night years ago! haha if not for that night, we may not have been such good frens. haha.
P.S. Your brother, O my goodness, **MAJOR DROOL**

CHERYL TAN JUELING
u are my opposite to the max sia. haha. u this super angmoh person who major in english??!! i have never in my life ever understood why would pple want to major in english. haha. but despite ALL the differences, we can still be frens and to be exact good frens, all i say is its definately by God's grace that we can tolerate each other. haha. Thank You for bringing so much joy in my life. Really Thank You. heeZ.

GOH POH LING
you know everything abt me, from how i cry at night to how i can think of the stupidest things and how i like to contradict myself or when i fall for guys that will nv happen, u never tell me that i m being stupid, u just encourage me in my little fantasies (though whether this is good anot i dunno) haha. . yet u never despise me or find me irritating, I really thank God for you, for your everlasting patience and tolerance towards me. all i really hope for now, is for you to share my love for God too.

HE HUIHUI (CHARISSA RUTH)
i never imagined being good frens with you. haha. but yet you always call me whenever u have nothing better to do just because i m the only person whose hp number u memorise coz its so easy. haha. i m glad that u are part of life, for spuring me on in my walk with God, for teaching me how to slowly slip God into the conversations with our classmates thus "evangelising" in a non-threatening way. heeZ. for crapping and doing the silliest stuff ever and finally for being my fren. Thanks muchie toot! haha

PAULINE LOW
mentor, thanks for guiding me thru life's narrow way. haha. thanks for taking time to listen to my problems and giving me advise whenever I need them. thanks for being a fren too. heeZ.

MARK SU
for being my guy-girlfren! haha. no words can describe our frenship, though we haven talk as much this year as the last, but i m glad to know that our frenship hasnt change. heeZ!

got work to do now! will thank the rest another time then! heeZ.

A HAPPY NEW YEAR if i dun blog before then! heeZ.

p.s. my hands are freezing! argh!

2006-12-12T16:44:00.000+08:00

ok fine.

I failed!

with 40 pts somemore.

dun laugh!

just my luck to get a fussy tester

there goes more money down the drain.

sighZ.

2006-12-07T00:08:00.001+08:00

**panic mode**

DRIVING TEST TMR!

God help me!

2006-12-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

the wedding.

thanksgiving outing

hui's bday

2006-11-27T12:22:00.000+08:00

my dearest daddy bought me...............................

THIS!

I think I have the greatest DADDY on earth!

JEALOUS???!!

haha

2006-11-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

HELL WEEKS coming up!

24th Nov (Friday)
Cell Group

25th Nov (Saturday)
Lunch with Baoling
Swimming??
Meeting with Char regarding wedding

26th Nov
Driving Lesson
Meeting with Mr Wong regarding wedding

27th Nov (Monday)
Monday BLUES

28th Nov (Tuesday)
Driving Lesson

29th Nov (Wednesday)
9am - ?? :PFT! at CHOA CHU KANG!
7.30pm - 9.30pm: Wedding Rehearsal in church

30th Nov (Thursday)
Dinner with P, M and D

1st Dec (Friday)
Tianpei's Bday
Cell Group

2nd Dec (Saturday)
10am - 4pm: Mr Wong's Wedding
7pm - 11pm: Wedding Dinner (got 2 somemore, must decide which to go for, die!)

3rd Dec (Sunday)
Driving Lesson
Pauline's Bday
Mummy's Bday

6th Dec (Wednesday)
Denise's Bday
Robson's Bday

7th Dec (Thursday)
3.45 pm -?? : the dreaded DRIVING TEST!

that sums up my next 2 weeks for now. argh! do u feel overwhelmed! i m ready to faint!

Please pray for the 29th Nov and the 7th Dec one ok! These are the most impt among all the other events! ooo. and the wedding too! hope it goes well! haha.

Happy thoughts
1. I got my pay today! muahahah!
2. I bought a bag from dorothy perkins just now during lunch!
3. I got money to buy things already! muahaha!
4. Most probably getting my ipod this sat! (coz got promotion so my dad going to buy earlier!)
5 Bought a wallet on monday!

Was reading cheryl's blog just now and chance upon the 2 sites that she was shopping online from! pretty! hahaha. maybe its my turn to be hook onto it! muahaha! bad influence, MS CHERYL TAN!. haha!

Have been quite happy recently. heeZ. no idea why though! haha.

lastly, karen, charmaine and cheryl! its time to meet up before u all forget how i look like! hmmm probably not coz we meet every sunday. but we haven met up to catch up for very long! pls org somebody!

2006-11-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

PFT!

just receive an email from the Singapore Prison Service. And they are calling me down for PFT (Physical Fitness Trial) and a Job Preview on the 29th Nov. On one hand, I'm ecstatic! but on the other, HAVE U SEEN THE PASSING MARK FOR THE RUN AND PULL UP?! although, luckily its only a 1.2km run but i still need to finish it in 8mins 30 secs! around my house area, according to my dad, he says its 1.3km and i take like 10mins to run that (ok dun laugh!), now u want me to run 8:30!! HOW?! and for the Pull Up: I need 4! 4! 4! in JC, i only did 3 loh! haha. I can just go and bang my head on the wall la. How to?! and its only 1 and a half weeks away. no time to train even. argh! wth! And its at CHOA CHU KANG at freaking 9am on a WED morning! (which means i must take leave again) argh!

O! I feel like fainting!

God, pls see me thru this!

2006-11-16T13:16:00.000+08:00

Guess What.

I cried at work today. First time in my life, i kana scolded until cry by somebody other than my mom. i really felt so lost, i thought after i come out and work everything will be alright but i guess i thought wrong.

God! I prayed! I really did and all I ask for is to help me not get into anymore trouble at work, not to make anymore mistakes. Lord, are u ignoring me? I really need help! Please. Really. I canot do it anymore, I m going to break down anytime you know. I have never felt so small, so lousy so insignificant. are u trying to break me down? Where are You? I need ur Refuge, I need ur comfort! Please God! I need Your strength!

o its raining!

God, U heard me right?

isnt it amazing that no matter how much ur day sucks, the sun will still continue to shine, the rain will continue to fall? doesnt it shows that there is more to life then just ur sucky life (irony here) haha. but guess its time i stop hubbing (wrong spelling here) on my mistakes but look to God and know that He has a much better plan for me then being stuck in this little make-believed world of shares, stocks and bonds.

2006-11-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

Danielle's conscience bugging her

sighZ. kana scolded again. thought she wun be in today when I didnt see her here this morning but in the end she came at abt 11 plus and scolded me somemore. argh! ok its my fault for not sending that email la. but sighZ. ok i will bear responsibility. Actually I could have fake my way thru and tell her that becoz i saw that my another colleague has already send the email thats why I didnt send. But while typing the email to "bluff" her, my conscience had to come and tell me "Danielle, this is not right, even if u do this, it would not help anything. why not just leave it and just accept the scolding because u were wrong?" Well, then i had to go listen to it. U all better be proud of me for listening to my conscience. I guess my conscience is really tested to the max here, and the Holy Spirit is really exploiting all situations to nudge me to do the right thing. Argh! Feel horrible, maybe it will be better after a good lunch. haha. But yet I know at the end of the day, i have one less sin to confess. muahaha!

And please Prison officers, pls take me in, I dun want to see her again! argh! please! I even went running last night to try to up my chances of passing the dreaded 2.4km, but I have yet to do anything to train myself for the inclined pull ups.

**Pray! God I need you!**

2006-11-09T12:42:00.000+08:00

Bad mood.

I m back with my suayest day. Thank God the boss is not in today or I can go and die. better do a better job tmr so that monday when the boss is back everything is swee swee one. sighZ.

ARGH!!!!!!!! feel like screaming!

I hope I get the prison officer job sia. Then I can get out of this place!!!! Where everything is based on details and me being me, can nv get details right, hence by only-a-pass-degree in mathematics.

Anyway, the interview yesterday was alright I guess. But I dun think they will hire me though. HAHA. **crosses fingers** Anyway there were like 3 interviewers, and 2 of them knew people from St. Hildas.

So like one of them ask me, "So you are from St. Hilda's, tell me what are your 5 core values?"
I was like "HUH??!?!!"
I mean like how long was it ago that I was in secondary school? 6 yrs? And back then it was the 7 tenets leh. what 5 core values. haha. O! maybe it is the 5 words hanging at the D&T block. ah crap.

But he was joking with me and all la. sighZ. Then before I left, the lady interviewer told me, if you are really being shortlisted, you will have to dye your hair black. I was like "o ok" BUt in my heart, I was like WHAT??!?! i haven had black hair since secondary sch. even in JC, mine was a little brown leh. sighZ. o well. what to do.

anyway just in a foul mood now. ARGH!

2006-11-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

heyhey.

i'm bored at work again!

anyway an interesting piece of news to tell u all. haha

i applied for senior officer at scdf (its Singapore Civil Defence Force, if u do not know) last night, and i thought they will take like ages to call me up then guess what. this morning! yes this morning, this person called me and ask me some funny qns like what m i working as now, am i still playing sports regularly etc. Then she say actually she wants me to come down for the dec intake ( coz got 2 intake a year, june and dec) machiam no interview like that sia. haha. so I was like but my contract only ends in February. Then she was like hmmm hmm, ok why not I KIV ur application then i will call u again in FEB. Then i was like sure! haha. but i'm not sure if she will call back, hopefully she does or I WILL CALL HER! haha (evil laughter!) i think i will call her later and ask her for her name so then i can call her back when my contract ends. muahaha!

then i m going for the prison officer's interview coming wednesday. haha dunno how it will go leh. heeZ.*crosses fingers*

Actually i seriously canot imagine myself in an office job for the rest of my life. How boring! haha. doing nothing but work on the com, its like u are just living day by day hopefully the day passes faster, and everything in ur life is abt ur family, bf and job. so sad. sighZ, maybe thats why i keep applying such weird weird jobs. heeZ

ok going for lunch now. ttyl! muahah

2006-10-31T17:14:00.000+08:00

its time! time to come back and tell you that I love YOU!

And may I never let my focus waver again.

it has been a long hard journey.

And you never gave up on me.

Always sending people to nudge back when i've strayed too far.

After all that you have done for (let's see) 4 years,

its time i come back.

Hopefully its for good!

I have learn a bittersweet lesson,

You let me walk all the way to the edge but never let me fall,

You never gave up no matter how much I resented you,

You were always watching over me.

Help me never stray so far again.

Help my eyes fall upon YOU only.

I never want to walk where you don't want me to

I never want to give my heart to people you don't want me to give to

I never want to spend lonely days or nights without you again

I want to be walking in your footsteps by the beach

I want to touch the lives that you want me to touch

Most of all, I want to learn to love you the way you love me.

Lastly a song, to tell me again of your presence and your love.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,Lord,
You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am…
I am Yours
I am Yours

2006-10-27T14:17:00.000+08:00

lookin at myself in the mirror,

i think i look good.

but why m i all alone.

shouldnt there be someone beside me,

standing by me,

telling me he will always be there for me.

someone who is willing to hear me rant abt how shitty my day was,

or how everything went according to will.

someone to share my joy when the rain comes down,

or share my pain when the haze seems bad.

someone for me to dream abt when i am bored,

someone who make me wears that silly grin all day,

someone who holds my hand when they turn cold,

someone who tells me i look good no matter how fat i feel.

Being alone is not a bad thing,

i have my freedom, i have my peace,

but is the feeling of peace and freedom able to overtake that of love?

or is love irreplaceable?

what is love base on?

feelings? character? looks?

how can u be sure u will still love that person till the end of age?

if u like this person coz of his looks, is that superficial coz he will age?

if u like this person coz of his ways, is that lasting for everybody will change?

if u like this person coz of ur feelings, is that valid for our heart changes as easily as the sea?

Till death do us part,

a promise made, many times broken.

is love strong enough to last "till death do us part"?

but seriously where is the one who is suppose to stand by me?

U ARE NOT DOING YOUR JOB

by leaving me out in the cold!

**Just feeling a little emo at work**

2006-10-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

Tribute to the closest people around me!

2006-10-18T15:40:00.001+08:00

i hereby annouced this week as

THE SUAYIEST WEEK OF MY LIFE!

i have never been this suay in my life b4 ok. everyday at work, i m just hoping to end it faster coz i keep getting into trouble for some stuff. everyday different things, and as the saying goes bad things always comes in pairs. and that is what is happening everyday. literally. today is only wed and i got scolded like 7 times already. and its just carelessness! i mean like. ARGH! I know I m careless but to this extent??!!!! i hate myself la. I m just looking forward to next week's 2 day break for me! pls come faster! pls!

poor sad danielle.

2006-10-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

haiZ.

do you feel that some days everything just seem to go wrong?
Today is the second time I feel this way while working here. Feel so horrible, I know its my own damn fault and i should feel horrible but this horrible feeling is really bad. makes you feel like ur insides are being chewed up by this monster name "horrid". And your insides just feel queasy and all, and when u hear ur boss call ur name, ur heart just turns cold, literally.

The only good thing I can think of is, I'm leaving in 2 hrs, ok make it 1 hr 38 mins more, and it will be a better day tmr. hopefully *crosses fingers* sighZ

Mr Horrid, stop chewing me!

tears seem to be on its way to my eyes.

is it really that i am that affected or is it PMS?

its time for Mr Red to appear already! sighZ.

2006-10-10T13:46:00.000+08:00

hey.

today is the boringest day of my life. I got nothing to do! argh! at all, and i still have to act as if I'm very busy. u may say, good what nothing to do at work, like dunno how many pple want to be in my situation. But seriously when u are in my shoes, its a different story all together. argh. i was so bored that I went to design dolls. see below.

haha. i know its crap la. but i'm too bored to care.

ever had the feeling of liking someone but u know its impossible.
I think this feeling is horrible but what is worse is................
you like someone who u have been together with b4 but yet its impossible to get back again. and probably the person doesnt even know abt ur feelings. this sux big time la. i dun even know what I m typing this, HA! i feel like hiding under my blanket and have a good long sleep! haiZ. i m digressing.

anyway i lost like 6kg ever since after the mission trip, and i need to lose another 6kg to hit my ideal! haha. wish me luck k! i can do it!....... muahhah. i m 10kg away from when i m heaviest, haha. feel rather happy though.

ok i m really bored. i dun even know what i m typing all these crap already.

i wanna sleep.

2006-10-09T12:48:00.000+08:00

Feelings from within.

I am astounded by the amount of memories that came flooding back,
after seeing you again after 4 long years,
memories that I have buried deep down, that I thought have disappeared,
are hitting me in the face, once again.

Every action and movement you did that day, did not go unnoticed by me,
Any kind or concern gesture that came along my way,
made my heart beat even faster, just like yesterday.
I thought I have forgotten but it seems like I have only deeply buried it,
And now they are re-surfacing again.

All I remembered about the times we spend together were the sweet sweet moments,
but as a close fren pointed out,
I was basically crying everyday towards the end of it,
How come those times I chose to forget, why am I showing you my vulnerability again?
I don't understand, why I'm exposing myself to hurt,
I guess all I can say is that I'm just a sucker for romance.

2006-10-08T00:07:00.000+08:00

Dear Heavenly Father,

Don't give up on me, Please be patient with me,
I know I'm taking one baby step a day or sometimes maybe even less,
But I'm trying, I really am.
Please don't give up on me, Father.
You have been my heart's desire and always will be,
And I may have lost focus now,
But I will come back. Really.

I know I have yet to convinced myself to make a major step towards you,
but I hold on, hold on to that beacon of hope that you have given me,
I'm won't give up,
instead taking little steps, one at a time,
no matter how small the steps,
I know one day I will reach you again.
My only hope is that I would never run from you again.

Please send people to guide me along this tough time,
coz sometimes I'm quite lost to how to take that baby step.
I know its all stems from the heart,
But there must be some things that I need to do,
But i really dunno what.
So please, o Father, guide me.

But most importantly,
PLEASE DON'T GIVE ON ME, FATHER!

love,
danielle

2006-10-04T16:45:00.000+08:00

my 4 boyfrens!

long ago, baoling told me she has 4 BIG boyfrens. and they are all from Hongkong. and they happen to be megastars (hmmm. not really in my opinion). anyways they are:

1. Nicholas Tse

2. Gu Tian Le

3. Edison Chen

4. Daniel Wu

then i decided i canot be outdone by her. so i chose my 4 boyfrens too! but since HongKong is such an outdated entertainment country, mine are from Taiwan! (then u are goin to tell me, that the hottest countries now are korea and japan, BUT i dun care. haha) so here is my 4!

1. Pan Wei Bo
- boyish charm, the "prefect but still huai" boy in school. Awwwwww..............

2. Mike He
- perfect shuai ge! Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....................

3. Wu Zun
- exotic, shy! awwwwwwwwwwww.......

4. Vanness Wu
- bad boy! awwwwwwwwwwww.................

haha. dun tell me they are not shuai! because they R! haha.

ah...... my 4 boyfrens!

HAHA!

Comment: This is what happens when one gets too bored at work, so the author is not weird, just bored.

Muahahaahahahahhaa............

2006-10-04T13:57:00.000+08:00

i just extended my contract the bank for another 3 months leh. haha. should be quite happy la. like i dun need to worry of lookin for another job within the next 3 months. but the singapore prison officer people called me and ask me if i m still interested, and ask me to send my documents down. I m quite interested la, coz no need to think of what to wear, haha stupid reason i know but still. haha. valid what. heeZ.

anyway having bday dinner for hui on friday night with my JC classmates. heeZ. chili crabs here i come! haha. eml is coming i think. dunno how leh, i know there is still something in me that have something for him la. but well, it has been over for so long. sighZ. dunno what will happen when i see him again. heeZ.

i want to buy a bag leh! but i cant find nice one leh. sighz. maybe i'll go shopping myself later. haha. any suggestions?

maybe i should go back home and bathe bathtub later. haven had a relaxing scrub for a long time already. heeZ. and read my book! wah. ok! i m going to do that later. maybe can drop by bodyshop and get some spa package thing then throw into my bathtub later! muahaha!

i wonder who reads my blog now loh. after it has been stagnant for so long. haha. but its a good place to while my time away when i m too bored at work. heeZ.

kayZzzzz. i really got nothing to say liao. if i can think of something, then i will blog again la. heeZ.

2006-09-29T14:43:00.000+08:00

i think i m weird.

i think i have lost my EQ skills. haha. its like i take very long to warm up to someone, take very long to speak my mind and say anything to new friends that i know. and this is hindering the way i make frens i think. like i really admire those pple who can hi and then become like good frens with you immediately kinda of person, its just great not having to watch what u say and stuff i guess. heeZ.

and i think the way i talk is weird. like i always say things out of nowhere, out of the blue. and i think i have thrown pple offguard many a times. haiya.

and i do weird things too. like talking to the wall, putting pink hair extensions, appreciating really really cold jokes, have a thing for weird songs (dun ask!) and all.

aint i weird? no wonder i dun have a bf! haha. sighZ.

but i like the way i m, i enjoy saying weird things and make pple go 'huh!' but i guess not alot of pple like it. haha.

i dun even know why i m blogging this. maybe i m just too bored at work. or maybe the weird danielle is coming up again.

went lunch with a colleague of mine, lets call her T, then was talking to her. and she was just comparing with me with another colleague of ours but of the same age as me, lets call her R. T say R is the kind who will talk about anything and you feel very close to her when u first know her but after a while, u can sense a wall between u and her. like though u are close but not very also. then T went on by saying " but you (me) are quieter (yeah right!), look more the cute cute kind (grins!), then occassionally u will say some weird weird things (Argh! wth!)' I really didnt know whether to laugh or cry after she finish saying that. haha.

haiZ. enough about my weirdness.

going JB for some shopping tmr! going with my colleagues! yeah. checked out the shoppin centres already and they have shops like mango, topshop etc. hahah!! hopefully it will be cheaper there! *crosses fingers*

just a slight update on my non-existent love life, haha, the chaser has given up! though he still calls every morning to give me a wake up call, but i believe it wun be long b4 he gives up totally la, and its not a bad thing la. at least i wun feel bad or feel obliged to go out with him. haha.

and i think i have been doing quiet time like a routine. just read and go sleep. i have been trying but to no avail, am considering getting a bible study book, those with qns kind, then at least i will read the bible and think thru the qns. but they sell it quite X at LIFE bookshop right. hmmm, i have to go down SKS?? maybe can get my mum to buy for me since she work so near. haha. and if she really helps me, it will be a MIRACLE ! haha. maybe can go TACMAN, is that the correct spelling? hmmmm..

anyways......

i think this blog will be more alive now, now that i am uber bored at work everyday. haha maybe can update everyday. haha. see how la. but no pictures la coz my 'clever' office bans all JPEG files, how smart right.

lastly, i want to promote a product to everybody!

Go get the NIVEA VISAGE - GOODBYE CELLULITE!

its uber good! no joking! i only started using it last tuesday, and i saw reasons within like 3 days. its uber uber good! serious.

P.S. just realise "uber" sounds interesting. maybe should start using it permanently. haha.

2006-09-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

redid my layout again.

i think i m really goin thru quaterlife crisis. its like i m suddenly becoming or rather trying to become an ah lian all over again. went to pierce my ear (the top), something which i have run thru my mind over and over and over again but nv pluck enough courage to go do it. so on monday night, i decided no more running away. i even prepared myself for the worse, the pain and all. but surprisely no pain at all. hmmm. so all these years i have been worrying for nothing. sighZ. haha. yeah.

anyway work has been good i guess. but the main point is i have money at the end of each month. its like i can finally buy whatever i want to buy without having to weigh my balances for the rest of the month, hmmm actually i still do but its not as tough as it use to be in the past when i was still living off my parents. heeZ.

just bought a dress when out shopping with karen on sunday. an improptu decision that made me poorer by $79. haha.but its a beauuuuuutiful dress. haha. happy but poorer.

anyway decided to post some graduation photos that i have nv shown anyone which i dunno why also. haha. and as ms p. would have said, the kampong spirit coz my whole family went down for my graduation, literally whole family, aunty uncle ah ma ah gong. name it and they are there. just see for urself. haha.

2006-08-30T16:49:00.000+08:00

hello!!!! its been a month sia. i have started work already. and have to wake up at like 7plus everyday. yesh! danielle wong and 7plus am doesnt sound right together but well, what to do! anyway. having gastric right now i guess. argh! but i ate lunch. dunno what on earth is happening to my body sia. hopefully no one sees me bloggin during office hours. haha.

anyway this morning, while doing work, i just kept feeling the same old insecure feelings again. like what if nobody wants me and all. sighZ. i really feel horrible sometimes, when all i want is a girl's night out and pple call their bfs along. or like when u want to go out with them, they need to run back to their bfs. and those who are telling me to enjoy the singlehood, just shut up k. coz if its so wonderful. why not just breakup? right? so dun bitch to me abt how u are being controlled by ur bf, or how much u all quarrelled and all coz u chose that path urself.

sighZ. i think i m just going thru quater life crisis. realise all, let me re-emphasize the word, ALL my good gfs are attached. i have become second place. sighZ. maybe its good for me, maybe its something i should learn abt self-worth, that my worth is not base on how much pple need me by their side but by who i m in God. much easier said than done. maybe God's plan is for me to be a nun. HAHA. *crosses fingers* pls God, no! sighZ.

my driving test is like next friday. so please please please pray for me coz i dun want to retake. (though i knoe 90% i will) anyway, the pt is i m sick of driving already. so just let me get over and done with it. please!

ok la. been looking too hardworking while at work, guess its time to act abit more slack so look more real. haha.

2006-07-31T13:57:00.000+08:00

argh! i was hoping that the company can call me today and let me know when to start work but guess what! the boss is on urgent leave today! so so so it means i wun know till she is back! argh! life sucks! pls pls pls God let me get the job!

2006-07-27T17:52:00.000+08:00

argh! going for interview tmr! they called me at 9.03 today to ask me go for interview! argh! pray pple pls pray for me! i really really need the job!

2006-07-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

been doing nothing lately. so anybody who has a part time job, pls pls pls look for me. i will do anything! haha.

waiting for my interview on 14th aug that week, really really want to get it. recommended by a fren, and she say like 80% confirm can get one. PRAY PRAY PRAY HOPE HOPE HOPE! haha.
if i get it then should be startin work on 21aug. really really hope to get it. its some banking job btw. haha.

anyway, i m re-readin a book that karen gave me, abt God being enough for me. i think it reminded me abt some stuff that i overlooked in my life. its really amazing, now that i m making a move to getting back to God, u can feel that HE is there(not that it should be based on feelings), and u feel like he is listening. interesting la! heeZ.

anyway thats all for now la.

2006-07-07T04:02:00.000+08:00

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single.
You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone.
However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating.
Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

Do You Need a Man?

2006-07-06T14:06:00.000+08:00

i think i m giving up.

maybe when God gave us life, it was meant for us to learn to rely on HIM only.

maybe frens were nv meant to play any major part in our lives except for the leisure part.

or maybe they were meant to be important but i just didnt make the right frens.

i guess loneliness can stand in the empty gap of being my next best fren.

giving ur heart to a anyone is only making u vulnerable to that person, and i guess pple are not capable of handling pple's heart with care either that or they dun care at all.

keeping it to myself seems safer though.

i know i should not be thinking like that but i cant help it.

i know this was not God's intention but i cant help it either.

i guess i have to learn to totally rely on God now.

i guess and most probably HE is the only one who wouldnt let me down la.

2006-07-01T04:18:00.000+08:00

life cant get any tougher right?

is compatibility a must among best frens?

i feel so tired giving, shouldnt it be time i receive already?

everything is tumbling down.

God only U can save me now.

help me come back to u.

2006-06-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

life gets really tough at times. i m at a major loss. suddenly i have lost all my good frens or is it just me who canot want to lose them hence they are lost. it has come to a pt of devastation, a pt of hopelessness. i just want to hide in my room forever and nv come out. i just want to hide myself from Mother Earth so she wouldn't pull me along while she carry on spinning the world and everybody's lives. i just want to hide. and yet while hiding i want to turn to God, but i m scared i may have lost HIM as well. i m scared He has given up hope on me, though i know He will nv give up on me but deep within i m afraid. i can burst into bouts of tears anytime these days, my tears are like a fountain that i want to stop but cant. well wish me all the best pple. i hope i will pull thru. the question is not whether i will but when.

2006-04-03T02:59:00.000+08:00

my fav song plus mtv now! haha. and yes i m a china-piang ok. haha!

2006-03-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

saw this somewhere so went to try it out! haha. turns out i look like namie amuro. compliment to me or insult to her? hahhah!

2006-03-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

i read this very interesting thing that i have pasted on my wall but soon neglected it and now that i read it again. its so refreshing! its about how an 8-year old kid try to explain what is God. ok here goes.

Explain God.

One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so that there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grown-ups, just babies. I think they are smaller and easier to make. That way He doesn't have to waste his valuable time teaching them how to walk and talk. He can just leave it to the mothers and fathers.

God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on. since some people like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this.

God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your Mum and Dad's head asking for something which they said you couldn't have.

Athesists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any here at least there aren't any who come to our church.

Jesus is God's son. He used to do hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and people got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him.But He was good and kind, like His Father and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said, "ok".

His Dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did. And now He helps His Dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important. You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.

You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God. Don't skip church to do something you will think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong.

If you don't believe in God, you will be very lonely, beacuse your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know that He is around you when you are scared in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids.

But... you shouldn't just think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and He can take me back anytime He pleases. And... that's why I believe in God.

I think this perspective of God it is so simple and so pure. But as we grow older, we don't think like that anymore, if we have something on then we just skip church or skip cell group. it is like so common to us. I miss being able to think like a kid, it is so easy. heeZ.

i read somewhere also that:
if God had a wallet, He would put all our photos inside it.
And if God had a fridge, He would put all our drawings and works on it.

I wonder if i really had a photo of God, would I put it in my wallet. heeZ.

God's love is just so amazing yet I always doubt always try to dig things out that is not meant to be, always find excuses for what i have done or what I m doing, always trying to blame things on Him that happen to me. Yet I never realise all this must be for a greater will of His.

*God, I'm sorry. Forgive me please. *

2006-03-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

i m having my first driving lesson in an hour's time! argh! so scary!

argh!

2006-03-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

can u see the three yellow lines under the hand?! do u know what it is?

its the driver's fingernails! i took it while on a cab! yucks!

2006-03-15T02:00:00.000+08:00

pretty pretty pretty

was looking at my secondary school's frenS friendster. and apparently my grp of frens are still in close contact with each other all but me. i know i chose to gave them up coz of the difference in topics and the major difference in what we treasure. i just dun really fit there i guess. so when i met my JC and church frens whom i blend so easily with. they just dropped out of my life. of coz they tried to ask me out for outings and i tried to make it for outings, but i always felt so left out. sighZ. so i gladly just dropped them but now i feel a sense of i-dont-know what. like i feel left out again. i know i shouldnt feel anything but sighZ. just doesnt feel right. then when pple say they are going to meet secondary sch frens like so cool like that. sighZ.

mayb i would have handled it differently if i was given another chance.

anyway going MISSION TRIp in JUNE. haha. my first mission trip sia! dont know what to expect! heeZ.

ok i m going back to mugging with my mug and drowning in my books already!

2006-03-05T02:28:00.000+08:00

sighZ.

will i ever get marry?

what if nobody wants me?

om goodness. i m really going crazy again.

and i m hungry.

so many tests so many projects.

why m i not depending on God?

i m tired.

what if i cant get a job?

i m graduating, going to wear that blue square ugly hat that

i just rebonded my hair, now its too straight.

i m really hungry.

have i put on weight?

i want to lose weight.

argh!

random thoughts of danielle wong

2006-03-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

http://kevan.org/johari?name=daniellewong

seems like this is very popular now. heeZ. so i got one for myself too. heeZ.

so peeps do k!. heeZ.

2006-02-28T01:12:00.000+08:00

i want to close my eyes for a little rest.

but i cant coz on my table is the never ending work to be done.

now i m just doing my very best to keep my eyes open.

my poor poor eyes

God pls bless my eyes!

2006-02-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

i passed my advance theory for those who doesnt know yet. haha.

i m going to learn driving soon! muahahh!

anyway just came back from bangkok! it was fun la. hee. i bought alot alot of stuff loh. heeZ.

haiZ but when i come back to reality, to singapore, all the work come rushing back. sighZ.

while i m typing this i m doing my work loh. sighZ..

niteZ to those who are sleeping. and all the best for those like me.

2006-02-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

argh! today is my advanced theory! argh!

pls pray!
pls pray!
pls pray!

i dun want to fail 3 times again

i dun want to fail 3 times again

i really dun want to fail 3 times!

argh!
argh!
argh!

2006-02-16T18:06:00.000+08:00

sighZ. its a crazy week coming up.

friday - proj meeting from 4-6 in school
- 8pm DINOS
sunday - exco meeting
monday - TR3002 executive summary due at 5pm
- 4.30pm advanced driving theory test (pls pray pls pray!)
- 6.30pm TR3001 project meeting at yishun
tuesday - fieldwork at little india (10am!)
wednesday - TR3001 project meeting (time not confirmed)
thursday - saturday - bangkok
sunday - captain's ball in church
wednesday - TR3001 brochure + report due!

how much worse can it get.

but seriously pray for the advanced theory thing k coz i m really studying v hard for it and i dun want to take it 3 times. haha!

anyway learn something this week:
i finally understand what it means to "be weak and God will see you thru it"

its amazing how much He loves me despite my heck careness for him! heeZ.

and charmaine and cheryl, i really miss u all! sighZ. i feel so detached from u all like that! we must meet up soon k! and rem "fishy tales is coming up"hahhaah!

2006-02-16T02:52:00.000+08:00

i nv thought i can really be buried by school work when its not exams time.
first time without mathematics is so weird like i have nothing to look forward too. sighZ.
i have like 6 projects and 2 mid term tests! argh! how do arts or even business students survive this man?
u can never skip lecture, canot skip tutorial, canot be a invisible person during tutorials. argh!
u arts pple are inhuman!

2006-02-10T02:20:00.000+08:00

i'm going bangkok!
i'm going bangkok!
i'm going bangkok!

hahahhahahahaha! so happy! muahahah!

2006-02-09T03:41:00.000+08:00

2006-02-09T01:40:00.000+08:00

presented m product idea today! and it was well-receive sia! haha! and i think my presentation skills has improve loh! thank God sia! was praying so hard yesterday. heeZ!

haha. but with a gd idea. more stress comes! sighZ. going to be buried under projects and tests soon sia!

2006-02-06T01:17:00.000+08:00

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something thats of worth
That will bless your heart
I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And its all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
When its all about You
Its all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath I'll bring you more than a song
For a song in itself Is not what you have required
You search much deeper within
Through the ways things appear
You're looking into my heart

2006-02-02T01:37:00.000+08:00

stupid things that we do!

2006-01-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

i haven really started school yet i guess. haha. i feel like i m in a holiday esp on thurs and fri except that i m stressing myself out on monday tue and wed for no reason. heeZ. i m like totally embracing CNY actually although i dun know why. muahahah. and seriously its not for the food.

actually i m rather scared abt graduating. its like i dun know what is going to happen to me. like what if i cant find a job at all! what if nobody wants me! argh! this is so scary.

but recently (actually its just last night la), i was going out around different singapore companies websites seeing if they had any job vacancies and if they had what kinda of jobs were availiable la. and guess what! RP needs maths lecturers and they need admin staff too! haha. makes me feel rather relief that there is somewhere that i have a chance in getting a job. haiya, i know its silly la. its just to comfort myself k! heeZ

anyway happy CNY everybody! haha.

2006-01-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

sch has started and i m just stressing myself out for no rhyme and reason. so unlike me right. ha.

sometimes i really dun like to give opinions to things coz just by giving honest opinions u hurt other people. its like my sister jsut bought a set of new year clothes which look alot like the type of clothes i have long ago bought for chinese new year, then i was like "huh, imagine we go there looking alike(ok maybe not that alike) but like similar, spag top and and A-line skirts. like at our age, people will think we are mad loh." i was ultra piss seriously. now i have to relook for things to wear. suX la!

and guess what the next thing to happen, she got upset and my father came to know abt it. i bet he is upset with me for being piss over such a small thing. though he didnt say anything, i bet he is like going "that danielle again make denise upset!". so NOW its MY FAULT la!

i hate it la! i cant even voiced my opinions freely! argh! i really hate it!

2006-01-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

being a child of God is really tough.

there are so many things to be considered, so many things that can not be done.

and when u obey, its not abt ur obedience but abt ur attitude when obeying.

sometimes i really wonder so my life is all abt God and not at all abt myself?

then why should i live my life then.

there are so many so many things. sighZ. if only its easier.

but i guess i have to keep on trying.

and i think the main thing that i have to keep trying.

is to "love God with all of my heart, all of my strength and all of my mind"

ironic isnt it. the hardest to do is actually the first commandment.

there is no halfway.

encourage me k, frens who share the sentiments.

coz i will want to be there for u too when need me.

2005-12-28T01:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes when u sit down and look back
and think abt a sweet love that u once had.
do u smile or do u sigh with regret?

me?

well, i tend to do the regret thing.

i always wonder what if i had done this or what if i had done that.
would things have been different
would i still be with him now.

and when he called about a year back,
if i had tried harder,
would things have happen that would allow me to smile every morning to a sweet SMS.

but now all i can do is think.
sometimes i have an urge to just msg him
but i dunno if that matters to him at all anymore
coz he has become a "king" and i am here the same old usual me.

but i really cant help thinking, maybe there is this small part in him that still has a me.
but all i can do now, is really just to think.

2005-12-21T01:45:00.000+08:00

my stupid sister! heeZ.

she was trying to wrap my parents' christmas presents when the scotch tape got twisted. since she had only one hand to untwist it, she decided to enlist the help of her lips. so she place the scotchtape on her lips, use her finger to untwist. after that she proceeded to take it off her lips, and guess what!

it took a part of her lip along with it!!!!!

hahah.

so now she has this black patch on her lower lip! (the blood that dried after the peeled off the scotch tape) haha.

and she cant ponounce "purple", "black" , "mummy"! hahaha coz she let her upper lip touch her lower lip. heeZ

i m currently still trying to find words that she cant prononuce at the moment! haha.

so any suggestions pls place it on the tag board!

hahha

she really makes my life more fun!

2005-12-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

selfish i m
lazy i m
but uncaring to my sister i m NOT.

u want me to stay at home to do what?
so i stay, and i sleep.
then u complain i m lazy and i m a slacker.
so i go out with my friends till late,
then u say i only have my friends in my heart.
make up ur damn mind can!

u want us to do housework.
so we do.
i fold clothes while denise hangs.
and what do u do?
u switch on the telly.
or do some sewing on ur machine.
u claim u work, but i dun see u contributing at all.
my money comes from my dad.
the electricity is paid by my dad.
everything else that i know needs to be paid for,
comes from my dad.
and u even charge ur expenses to him.
where on earth do ur money go to?
to justify that, yeah u may be paying for some things i dont know. FINE!
and i dun care!

donna is ur gem!
go ahead and spoil her.
i really do not want to see what heartbreaks she will bring to u in future.
well but u never know.
she may just as well bring "glory" to the family.
as u always claim it to be.
my hope?
i really hope she becomes what u envisioned her to be.
coz i dun want to see her bad too.

whatever it is.
i m trying my best not to hate u.
pls dun make it harder.

2005-12-01T02:54:00.000+08:00

ladies night!

i found out a secret!

actually everybody looks good on the dance floor whether u know or dun know how to dance! coz of the lights. duh! hahahah.

i love my girlfrens!

2005-11-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

exams R over!!! muahahahah! so happy !!

but i will definately miss the last 2 weeks when baoling, huihui and karen came and bunk into my hall! i felt like i was in a chalet minus the stress and everything. heeZ. its like when i wake up, baoling would have made milo and breakfast for me, then karen would in the day make some superb toast , and huihui will make me laugh with all the stupid things that she do. it was definately a memorable 2 weeks. i bet when i think back on my life in NUS, this will definately be one of the things that will make me smile. heeZ.

anyway wanted to take alot of pictures to do the hall so i brought my digi cam then in the end, my sisiter didnt charge it! so i took only a few. sighZ.

thats baoling studying in an unglam position! heeZ.

thats the bed that have at least 2 people there every night! and at least one in the day studying.

thats the place where we hung 5 towels. (mine, baoling's, hui's, karen's and cheryl's though she was not there) heeZ

thats karen at the table outside my room studying. (its a public table but i sort of claim it for my own. haha!)

thats the view from my window! heeZ. its even nicer at night!

thats me (on the floor), baoling and hui (on the bed) taken by karen coz she is always wakes up the earliest sia! and i mean early(like 6.30am). heeZ

drawn by hehuihui during one of her quiet time!

lastly, thats my room number! haha.

lastly, i miss my illegal squatter room!

2005-11-11T01:23:00.000+08:00

really not in the mood study and having gastric! ahahahah! how! i really dun want to get any Cs this semester! O God pls! help me!

my hostel room has become a squatter sia. ever since like wed (ok that is only yesterday night), at least 3 people were sleeping in my hall (me, hui and karen) heeZ. next week got bao also. dun know how sia. heeZ.

but its really scary and i am really not in the mood to study sia!

o a good news! i got 70/100 for my MA3233 test! heeZ. i think average is 60 plus. heeZ. rather happy.

one more! rem the test that i failed the other time then somemore had to go for the makeup test. the second test!!! i got 70/100!!!! muahhahaha! hard work pays off ok! heeZ.

haiZ. if i am still alive, 2 weeks from now, pls congratulate me! and buy me a drink k! muahaha!

i need sleep, shopping, ktv and mahjong! ahahhaah!

2005-11-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

haha. Guess what! i wrote the tutor an email "telling" her i was not feeling well. see below.

At 12:13 PM 11/2/2005, you wrote:

>Dear Madam,
>
>I was not feeling well this morning so I didn't attend the tutorial just
>now from 11am-12noon. I would like to know how many points would be
>deducted from my tutorial participation/contribution grades? And I have
>done my one-pager on winter oak beforehand but was unable to hand it up,
>is it possible to hand it up to you still?
>
>Sorry for the inconvience caused.
>
>Wong Jin Wen
>U032445R

and she replied with!

Hi Jin Wen

I was told by your classmate that you weren't feeling well -- I hope you
are better soon!

I don't accept one-pagers, or make-ups if you haven't been in class,
because the one-pager is part of your attendance and participation.

But I assume that students might have to miss one or two tutorial sessions
each semester for one reason or the other. So, I allow each student to
miss up to two tutorial sessions without losing class
attendance/participation credit.

So, if you've been in class for all except this time and another time this
semester, you don't have to worry! (And, in your case, I'll make an
exception and let you miss this as a third one, if you've already missed
two. If more than that, I can't. Fair enough?)

Missed you in class!

Best regards

Mavis McAllister

so actually i didnt have to lie at all! sighZ. dun feel good! sighZ.

2005-11-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

damn pissed with myself!

i miss MNO tutorial! and i prepared for it! ARGH!!!!!

all because i overslept!

shit me! argh!

and i just found out because of that, i would be mark as not coming for 2 tutorials! WTH!

i m going to email the tutor man!

but i cant possibly tell her i overslept right! shit shit shit!

think i'll have to lie saying i was not feeling well! .

SHIT!

2005-10-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

found this quote in jinping's blog. found it interesting. but i would like to add one more pt.

It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter. -Marlene Dietrich

but its friends who will really pick up ur 4am call that really matter.

2005-10-23T02:07:00.000+08:00

having a major headache now doing my project. dun know why am i putting in so much effort this semester, maybe coz its my second last? haha.

its RAINING!

i was reading this book named "captivating" that karen lend me, and the author was talking abt love letters from God. i think it went something like, her husband was walking along the beach early one morning and as he was walking, a whale that had swam quite near the shore (hmmm. maybe its a baby whale. haha) hissed(i think thats what u call it) at him. and she was sort of jealous that God gave her husband such a special present that she demanded to have a whale too. so she prayed and the next morning or something, she went to beach as well but to her disappointment there was no whale. but she carried on walking along the beach talking to God and as she turn a corner, she saw a very pretty starfish. she was so happy but a little upset that it was not as big as a whale but she knew it was from God. so happily she carried on walking, and as she turned another corner, she saw a beach filled with big and small starfishes! imagine her surprise ! so she called it God's love letter to her!

i strongly believe that rain is God's letter to me. esp when it rains at like 3 or 4am in the morning. i feel as if the rain belongs to me coz so little people is up at that time. i know it might not "belong" to me, but i just feel so. heeZ.

2005-10-22T03:21:00.000+08:00

Desmond Hoo v.s Earthworm Jim

(picture of desmond from sarah's blog)

Don't they look alike??? haha. believe me k! i bet earthworm jim's creator saw desmond and decided to create MR JIM. agree with me anybody???!

2005-10-19T01:40:00.000+08:00

sighZ. i guess i m not meant to be a teacher. i was REJECTED by MOE! wth!! sighZ. seriously when i think abt it, maybe i just want to do it coz of the pay and the "iron rice bowl" idea. maybe thats why God knew my heart and did not give it to me. sighZ. but i seriously think i cant teach la. i cant even explain a maths qn coherently to my fellow frens. what more kids? haha. STOP finding excuses la danielle! u are just lousy. sighZ.

anyway baoling got it. and i m really happy for her. really! heeZ. but the problem is she got the teach first then go MOE thingy, so she is at a dilemna now. feel vexed for her too la.

but i guess i m really upset, coz i feel inferior which i know i m not suppose to coz pple will tell me there are other areas that i m better at and maybe i m just not suited for teaching. but i guess its a natural feeling. but it sucks la. like i cant be properly happy for baoling. sighZ.

come to think of it. i have been to a few interviews b4. but i always got rejected. is it the way i present myself? is it just me? feel very dejected now. so what if i got a degree, it is nothing loh. really upset now actually. what if i dun even get a job next time? i mean like seriously. what if nobody wants me? then i can just wipe my ass with my degree la.

really feel like crying now. sound silly right. maybe its from the stress this week, its really killing me.

stupid NUS stupid stupid MOE stupid stupid stupid me.

2005-10-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

argh!

2 tests and 2 porjects due next week!

another project due next next week!

my pretty hair is falling out!

2005-10-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

finally, jessie's wedding is over! and i think it was a HUGE SUCCESS! haha. alot of pple came to tell me how well it went! really happy! heeZ. but on the other hand, i would like to thank everybody who have helped in one way or another! i strongly believe things wun have been the same without u all! serious. everyone made a difference. heeZ. i think if i ever really start my wedding planning business, i'll have to hire all of u all! muahhahaha!

below are some picture that i took! heeZ.

2005-10-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

freedom! the sweet taste of freedom!

done with my makeup test! dun know if its suppose to be a reilef or a sigh. doubt i can achieve my 57 marks to attain a pass! sighZ. have to just leave it to GOD i guess.

several things have happen to me since i last blogged! haha. shall tell u some of them!

2 oct 2005: the most embarrasing day of my life!

i was at hui's bday party (ok her real bday is on the 10/10 but her dear bf couldnt book a chalet on the 9th so 2th it was). anyway i went there, very happy, wearing my new abercrombie and fitch t-shirt. met up with andy, tw, robson and boon ann. then slowly made our way to aloha loyang, bungalow 11! it was damn freaking far la! we walked and we walked and we walked. ok lets just skip to the embarrasing part:

part 1: half way thru the entire thing, hui's bf's brother (whose name is melvin i think) was throwing a small magician performance. so yeah being 21 years old, nobody would be amazed by the tricks, so though i was really impressed, i just decided to keep my mouth shut. so half way thru the magic show i decided to get some dessert, almond jelly by the way. when i came back and stood beside andy, the "magician" was doing the "magic" part of the trick, and being really impressed, i just went "WAH!" very loudly! and guess what, the whole chalet turn and looked at me! even the little kids la! i was utterly embarrased to the max! i know it doesnt sound embarrasing here, but just imagined the scenerio! serious. close ur eyes and imagine it. it is really really embarrasing to the max la! argh! from then on, the whole night, my classmates just kept laughing at me. sighZ. i m always the butt of the jokes.

part 2: as if i m not being embarrased enough. ok anyway, because of my nick in JC time which is big head by the way, my classmates were like trying to reminise(if that is how u spell it) the past. so they just went big head big head throughout the entire night la. then ok. during the usual photoshoot, the thing that happens in all bday parties. we were posing la. then suddenly the photographer went "can u bend down more, ur head!" i tell that was it, it re-triggered everything. my enitre class was laughing at me la! outloud somemore. embarrased to the max. its an unforgettable night k!

anyway some photos that we took below

4oct 2005

i was at science co-op trying to purchase a jotterbook. so i stood in quene behind a indian girl, so what happened was. while trying to dig for coins, i accidentally drop a 20cent coin and it happen to roll to her feet. before i could even bend down and pick it up, she bend down to pick it up. then in my mind was "wah, so nice ah!" so i expected her to return it to me . but guess what, she pick it up held it in her hand and asked her friend , who was 2 person in front of her, she went "eh u dropped money ah?" i was like "HUHUH!!!!!!! WTH!!!" then guess what her fren said " wah money ah, yeah mine!" i tell u, i really didnt know how to react to that sia! and the fren happily took MY money and walked out of the bookshop. argh! what on earth! luckily it was only 20cents, if it was $50 or $10 or even $2, i would definately, "HELLO! ITS MINE!" wth!

2005-10-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

NUS arts bazaar is damn cool la! i bought like 3 tops! u can see one of the tops below but i seriously suspect its fake abercombie & fitch (enlighten by diana after buying it) AND yes i know the pictures are super act cute. but i mean like what can u do when u are bored alone in hall right?? right??

and for more entertainment, these are the silly pictures i took with my sis sometime back.

2005-09-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

2005-09-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

argh! the stupid lecturer still does not want to set a date for the makeup test. sighZ. which most prob means it will be next week and i'll be ultra stress what with jessie's wedding comin up. heeZ.

this sem is passing very fast but i want it to pass faster still! maybe coz its really sad staying in hall alone. but i definately study more than the usual and of coz spend less money and also watch more tv. muahaha!

just went for the MOE interview on monday. which is yesterday la. the interviewers just kept trying to "scare" me away, like they keep telling me that being a teacher is really tough and once i get the bond i canot break it. breaking it is really bad. that kinda of thing. then i just kept telling them that i think i can do it. that i m aware of the toughness, but i believe i can do it. some rubbish la. sighZ really hope i can get it. hope baoling gets it as well. if not i'll have to go NIE alone sia. sighZ. God pls let me find favor in the interviewer's eyes! pls!

am reading "Captivating" at the moment. a book that karen lend me! its ultra duper good la! i suggest all girls should read it. it really hits down into the heart. and note: this is danielle speaking, the danielle who seldom or rather never read christain books. so pls go read it. its really good.

going to do some filming this saturday for my MNO! hopefully all goes well la. heeZ. second time in a half a year that i'll be on film! muahahaha! how cool can it get.

going to have an ultra uber busy week coming up! God, i need some of ur strength!

2005-09-23T04:41:00.000+08:00

just came back from mahjong. waiting for my hair to dry. sighZ. lost again. guess my luck is going down. shall stop playing till after this semester. heeZ. so dun tempt me people.

anyway my makeup test is like going to be postpone to week 8 which is week after next in other words, its the week where jessie's wedding is going to be held! argh! hope it is next week! pls! so i wun suffer under all the pressure. sighZ

got my MOE interview on monday morning! argh! HOW!

argh. my life sounds very stress and it really is.

pls dry faster u long hair!

tired!

2005-09-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

rem the test i talked abt. well guess what, i got back the results. and i suspected i m the lowest in the whole lecture. i got 23/100. i have never in my life gotten a result lower than 40/100 (unless u are talking abt chinese). and now i broke my own record. and now i have to go for a makeup test, which i have to score at least 57/100 to get a pass for the overall test. and this test accounts for like 20% of the whole module. its not like 1o% where i can say argh its just 10! its 20! damn 20! sucks la!. so now my mid term break is burn. i hate myself for not studying hard enough man. hate myself for watching so much tv! sighZ.

better get back to studying for another test so that i wun have to have another makeup. sighZ.

treasure ur life, u secondary sch kids!

treausre ur life, u working pple and stop complaning that students get a better life! u wun think so when u are studying. so stop telling me to enjoy my sch life! coz at times like this, I DUN! argh!

2005-09-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

maths lecturers are just so amusing.

during the first lecture, my MA3233 lecturer came into class and flash like 3 words on the transparency.

TANK
BANK
PINK

then he went, do u know why i flash this 3 words. as usual being science students, nobody answered him.
so he went on and said "If u take out all the 3 'K's from the 3 words, it is my name."
the LT burst out laughing. at that pt of time, i really didnt know if i wanted to laugh or cry.

ok today. Mr TAN BAN PIN (thats his real name btw), came into class with a big box. i mean like nobody bothers whether u carry a box around anot right. but He came to lecture and ask, "do u all know whats in the box?" i mean like everybody gave him to "HUH?" look. then he went, " who say its tutorials? raise ur hands.", "who says its a test raise ur hands", "who says u will like whats in the box raise ur hands". seriously i didnt bother much abt him la, i was just amusing myself listening to him. haha. then he just kept us in suspense till like half way thru the lecture.

He finally took the box and went around passing everybody chocolate bars.

all of us were like "wah he so generous ah". then when he finish giving it out, he said the chocolates bars are not free. then we were like HUH!!! haha then he carried on saying, that our friday lecture have to be shifted to another LT coz the MA1100 lecturer wants to borrow our LT for a test and the chocolates were actually from that lecturer. hahhaah its the first time i've ever heard of such an amusing thing of my 2 and a half years in NUS. he is just so amusing la. then he went on to say, he should go around asking other lecturers if they want to borrow the LT then we would get more free gifts! I was like argh!!!

yeah now u know the story of a poor NUS maths student! haha.

2005-09-12T16:36:00.000+08:00

just had a test.
it wasnt hard.
but i was stuck.
sighZ.
life sucks.
i'm probably goin fail.
and to think i thought i studied hard.

in the arts lib.
trying to do my assignment.
my eyes are closing though.
sighZ.
hope this sem passes faster.

tired to the max!

2005-09-07T02:01:00.000+08:00

argh! just found out like 3 hrs ago that i'm suppose to hand in a 1500 word report on tmr by 6pm! got a shock out of my entire life coz i thought it was due only on 19/10 and that is like ages away! so pia out my part of the report and now my fren is trying to make the whole report flow properly. heeZ. so quite ok la at least i didnt miss my bai fen bai! hahaha!

o anyway found out the cute guy in my grp has a blog! haha. but its all in a language i've never seen before in my entire life sia! haha. can go take a look at how cute he is at http://hugojan.blogspot.com . heeZ. he posted quite a bit of pictures there. muahahh!

anyway really tired now! yawnZ. but waiting up so i can edit the proj! sighZ. i need my beauty sleep!

2005-09-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

was walking back from arts to ext A just now. and the wind was blowing. then i was looking at the trees around the pathway then i realise that all the trees look different then it occured to me, that God really doesnt like similarity. heeZ. He made all of us different from the way we look to our DNAs to our fingerprints and He still has the energy to spend time to design each and every single tree right down to the insects and all. i once heard a photographer say that

CREATIVITY is when you captured one ordinary moment and turn it into an extraordinary moment

CREATIVITY is falling in love with the world loving the source of energy, creation and beauty

CREATIVITY is when you put on a new perspective or take a shot from another angle

CREATIVITY is when you wait at the place of fullest potential before you soar

then i realise God created all the ordinary moments and the extraordinary moments and all the angles u can see.

our own creativity is derived from God so can we even say we are creative in the eyes of God?

But God loves us so much that when we displayed our minor creativity, He does not scoff at us but rather He would look down at us and smile at us.

How great is His love for us!

2005-09-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

my daddy just called me! coz normally at home, i'm always the one who will be watching and discussing the superstar contestants with him. and today, i m in hall watching the show alone on my laptop, actually i was thinking abt my dad when i was watching it but i never thought of giving him a call. but he called me and asked if i was watching superstar!! haha. I think its his little way of showing that he miss me. its little things like that that really make me feel loved by my parents.

2005-09-01T18:14:00.000+08:00

haha. yes andrew, warrior sia! haha. anyway my laptop is safe! i came back to my hall and its here! muahahahahaha! i think the next time i leave hall, i will leave it in a drawer or something! haha.

anyway went to LONG BAR at raffles hotel with joy cheryl and charZ on monday! had ultra lotsa of fun. but i shant elaborate just in case kena counselling or lead to misunderstanding or something la. but rest assured is nothing that canot be known and no we didnt get drunk, its just that it might be misunderstood if i type it here. and i bet andrew will go like "wah youth leader ah!" haha. anyway i felt like i was like in some "sex in the city" espisode where the 4 girls go out and have fun on there own. where life has much much more to offer than just guys. haha. it was real cool la! and i really treausure the friendship we have there!

anyway, went for my technopreurship lecture yesterday, and my group was like ask to present the first qn. ok anyway, rem i was saying that i got a sucky grp(because they were so technical) but now a cute angmoh has join my grp and his name is like HUGO (i was so tempted to ask if his last name is BOSS), so though we were like in the same group but we seldom (ok almost never) talked like one on one, like normally its just group discussion. haha. anyway yesterday when we went to give the presentation, he came over and ask me a few qns and we like causually talk abt being nervous for the presentation. haha. cheap thrill! but yeah he is really cute. he has this shy kinda of look. haha. so cute. and he was wearing like BRIGHT GREEN shorts and he carried it off really well. i mean like who can carry of BRIGHT GREEN shorts. like seriously. haha

saturday is xiaoyu's 21st bday! and she is holding her party at carlton hotel ! wanted to ask her if she was getting married or turning 21 sia. haha. and i have to dress up loh. she says i cant wear jeans there! i was like HUH! i m in big trouble la. but dressing up may be fun la! muahhahaa! will post pictures if i bring my digi cam there! heeZ.

ok now on a more serious note.

i just wanna say something to pple who think i m a big-mouth.

i want to tell u all that i really dont care anymore coz i dun think so at all. but since it hurts so much each time i get misunderstood or "accuse" of that i've decided that i would just learn not to be kpo anymore not to care anymore abt pple so that I would have nothing to blabber abt or rather "spread around" . coz it hurts so much, esp when its a close fren who assumes and convict u even b4 u get a chance to explain why. (but no worries, i have forgiven u its just that it hurts too much hence i m complaining) as for pple who dun know me well enough but who i thought did, well i have only myself to blame then. but anyway wanna thank u all for reminding me that "caring" in my own way for pple hurts as well as sharing things with close frens might turn out in an adverse way. i will definately watch from now on who i share stuff with as well as what i share.

and to mark, wanna thank u for being there whenever i encounter this prob. u r a fren who knows me best and understand me just as i m. i really dont have to hide in front of u. thanks a million times for being such a wonderful fren.

sorry for being so mean. but i just needed to let it all out somewhere!

i m really fine. just dissappointed so there is no need to come to me and ask me if i m alright k. coz i m. heeZ.

2005-08-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

i think i m an ultra worrier! i m like ultra worried over my laptop being stolen coz i left it at hall loh. i have no idea why the sudden worry. so i called mark, and he prayed for me over the phone. sound so holy right. haha. but anyway, he was telling me that while he prayed, he felt that there were 4 words that came to him which was "the laptop is safe". haha. i was like serious anot. then he went like yeah! i was like wah serious! ok la. we'll see how it goes tmr loh. heeZ

anyway tmr night i am going some place with joy charZ and cheryl! haha. going to have fun sia!

2005-08-25T16:37:00.000+08:00

i m in hall already. the mugger hall where everybody's door is close. serious! i have not even seen the face of my neighbour let alone know how she looks like. o but the worse thing!

yesterday night, my laptop broke down and it was my first night at hall! so i knew nobody and had nobody to talked too for the whole night! i felt so alone for the first time! but thank God, there is always Mr Tseng for me to count. i gave him a call and he rush home and call me back to "entertain" me. and although he didnt comfort me at all ( he doesnt know how la. heeZ) his rubbish sort of made the world so much better. heeZ. thank God for guy frens like that! heeZ

so in the end, i ended up readin notes, trying to do my tut(note: trying), and reading the Bible. and i went to sleep at 2. i had the best sleep ever, it was so cold that i had to put on a sweater and snuggle under my blanket to fall asleep. heeZ but it was the best sleep. serious!

today i brought my laptop to the com center, and yeah they repaired my laptop within like 15 mins. i was like wth, if only i know how to do it, i would have felt so miserable last night. watever la. heeZ.

looking forward to go home! haha. for th first time in my life, i actually miss home!

2005-08-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

haha I GOT MY ROOM! THANK GOD! in extension A! but i m in room 538! same as charZ last semester! muahaha! no more long hours on the train! no more waking up at 8am! heeZ. but the thing is, its abit expensive! and my dad though he agreed, he was a little upset when i told him it was a 1000 bucks for the whole semester. he was at first very happy for me then his face fell when i told him how much it was. so now i'm going to go home late sit him down and ask him seriously if its too much. if it really is, then i'll probably be seen going back to tampines at 11pm on wednesdays nights and going to NUS at 9am on thursdays mornings. sighZ. but i guess, my dad have already done so much for me by paying for my sch fees plus allowances, its time i should spare a thought for him. And i hope he will be truthful with me abt whether he is comfortable with it, i dun want him to agree just becoz of my comfort. and knowing my dad, its hard la.

anyway in NUS arts central library now. suppose to be doing tut, heeZ. but i m not la. obvious right! muahaha. meeting pauline for dinner tonight at PS at 6.45 . hence the "hanging around in sch" . heeZ.

its been a while since i seriously sat down and talk to God. but its so hard. i mean like my life now is smooth-sailing, so do i need GOD? of coz i do. BUt its doesnt seem so. i seriously feel that the hardest time to be faithful is when there are no troubles in your life. When ur life is in turbulence, there is no one to turn to but God, so natuarally u'll be turning ur head and talking to Him every minute of the day, begging for HIS amazing grace and HIS help! sighZ. but on the other hand, no one wants trouble in their life. HOW! Lord, pls help learn to look to you when there are no troubles, coz thats when i need you most!

and i've also figured out why i m still single till now i guess. i guess i m really not ready for one, even if i have a bf, it will not be serious one and something bad might happen judging from history. i guess its all in God's awesome plan la!

2005-08-20T02:55:00.000+08:00

hey.

hechi called me just now to ask me out for dinner and to play mahjong. but i had DINOS so didnt answer his call, by the time i called back they were playing half way already. and i was very affected by that and i dun know why. so i was thinking and thinking. its not like i haven play mahjong in ages, it was like just a few days back that i played christine's hall. so i was seriously trying to figure out like what was making so upset. then i came to realise, it was the seriousness of the game being played. its not just abt mahjong. any game. like girls and some guys will tend to take non-competitive games less likely, like its ok to lose that kind. i mean like YES it is alright to lose but at least the intial idea should be u want to play to win mah. i m not trying to say that we should be a sore loser here but when u want to play something, play with effort to win. thats the spirit of the game mah. like bball or anything that pple play for leisure.

and i also realise i tend to communicate more easily with guys. coz like they can just talk rubbish for hours without getting bored. haha girls cant one. they must talk abt serious stuff, even if its rubbish, a while they will get bored already. muahaha. maybe i was born with the wrong gender la. heeZ

anyway now that school has started. i m still trying to get use to a 5day week la after 3 semesters of 4day weeks. its really hard with no free day to look forward too. sighZ. and i am really trying my best to make the best out of it. heeZ.

i also realise i m more at home in sch this semester. like i can say hi to pple without feeling awkard, maybe its like i m already one of the most veteran in the school already hence i feel very comfortable there. heeZ. made quite a few new frens in the 2 weeks already and coincidentally, they all happen to be guys. haha!

ok la. thats all la.

and andrew, thanks for continuing to read this blog sia. haha. and must meet up for dinner one day, i know its always me la. sorry k pal! haha

2005-08-18T02:24:00.000+08:00

haiZ.

its balloting for tutorial slots again! and it really sucks big time. i mean like why cant they just plan my timetable for me then i can just complain and shout at them coz i can not do anything abt it. Why give me freedom over my timetable yet restrict this freedom by allocating slots that i have no choice over? i feel hopeless like i have nothing i can do when I"M supposed to BE PLANNNIG MY OWN TIMETABLE. so now NUS wun get the blame coz its I who plan it and so it ended up this way but its not! sighZ.

and as if this is not enough, i had the hope of getting a room at temasek hall yesterday to compensate for my sucky timetable and now its dash coz i cant get it! why give me the hope in the first place. now i m looking for an alternative which is to stay at my aunt's house at clementi. hopefully it works out fine.

sighZ. i guess apparently nobody is reading my blog anymore after that period of "non-blogging". heeZ. but its ok i guess. maybe its better this way.

jessie's wedding is on the way. abit scared that i will screw it up actually haha. pray!

and guess what! my fren today ask me, eh so when u going to get a bf ah?! i was like what! i mean i thought u only get such qns coming ur way when u hit 25 or somethin! i m like currently a student and 21! spare me!

got sch tmr at 2! but need to go print notes. so going to sleep now! niteZ peeps!

2005-08-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

rem i said i went to my JC class chalet. heeZ. these are some photos we took.

2005-08-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

Gone are the days of mahjong and ktving!
Gone are the days of endless time!

School has started and got so many readings to do! Esp TR2202, its so scary and my group are sucky again. sighZ. i think I just dont have the group mates yuan u know, whenever i am assigned to a group, i always get very bad ones or maybe its just me who cant see the good in them . sighZ i dun know la. pray everything will go fine.

Anyway my timetable is real bad, i have like ALOT of free time everyday but yet i cant go home, i have to stay in school and "waste" my time there. sighZ. hopefully I can get my room in old kent ridge! must pray!

ha! i think i have learn the skill of talking to new people in lectures, like today i was at MNO lecture and I actually initial to talk to the guy beside me, and NO its not because he is handsome ok, its just coz he was there alone so i decided to make a fren and he happen to be a catholic but he says he call himself a christian, must ask him what he means one day. heeZ. anyway got his no so that i can borrow his textbook to photocopy so no harm in asking him abt the difference btw catholics and christians. heeZ.

have been doing PDL and have realised a few things. maybe i've really not been a real christian, maybe I've not really love God enough to the extent of really obeying HIM. But i know that now I am really going to try my very best to include HIM in my life, there really is no pt calling myself a christian when i cant even fulfill the basic love for GOd.heeZ. so wish me all the best and pray for me ya! heeZ. anyway PDL is real cool la, but its only cool if one look at it with an open heart and not a skeptical one. heeZ.

going to celebrate Don's bday tmr. hmmm. wonder what are we eating!

2005-08-05T01:52:00.000+08:00

argh! school is starting! and i m scared! i was just lookin thru the modules outlines and everything! and every module looks so demanding! esp TR2202! this is scary to the max. even the maths modules look ultra scary. serious! i m really scared! how! argh! God i really really need u! God pls bless me!

i might have to vote! this is so scary too! what if there was a tie! and my vote is the deciding vote! and i make the wrong choice! argh! the president of singapore all lies in the hands of 21 year old girl! ahahaha! haha. i know la! that cant happen in singapore la. its not possible loh. heeZ but i seriously might have to vote sia! this is so exciting! i mean like who gets to vote the very year they turn 21! its like such a slim possiblity and Singapore is famous with its walkovers, and i MIGHT get to vote! watch out man Singapore! haha.

talking abt that! NATIONAL DAY is coming! its time to hang the national flag and feel patriotic all over again! heeZ. will be home to watch the NDP! when i get a bf, i m so going to force him to get the tickets! heeZ. like what cheryl say, must at least go once in our lifetime to feel the atmosphere and see the fireworks. haha!

its FOP tmr. and i am thinking should i go. i really hate the after the entire thing where we have to make out way to the 10 bus stop which is like ultra far from the indoor stadium and on top of that have to squeeze with the crowd out of the stadium. sighZ. then wil reach home ultra late. sighZ. and its not like i m super enthu abt it. haiZ still thinking la!

sighZ. life is so full of scary things. i think i really need to bring them before God so it wun be so scary! heeZ.

2005-08-04T02:05:00.000+08:00

some silly photos we took at joy's place on sunday! had great fun cooking and catching up! haha! nothing beats an all girls gathering!

2005-07-30T02:25:00.000+08:00

HAHA! I got my module! muahaha! I bidded like 600 over pts for it! the highest i've ever bidded but since its my last year in NUS and i cant bring the pts and change them to money so WHY NOT USE THEM! muahah! so now i've got 4 out of 5 modules already. the last one one should be quite easy la since its the wed 6-9pm one so i doubt anyone would be crazy enough to fight with me over that module la. heeZ. and this is my last semester taking maths module! haha! dunno if i should be laughing or crying! muahaha!

quite excited abt starting sch actually! haha! i miss the claypot rice in science where u have to shout out ur order when u are abt 5 metre away to let them know what kinda of claypot u want, so that they can cook and by the time u reach the front, its ready! haha. and i miss munchie monkey too! dunno if the manager who always gives charmaine free food is still there anot! muahahah!

anyway my JC guy classmates are coming to NUS already! haha! it'll be so much funner! haha. coz in JC, my class consisted of like 18 guys out of 26 pple, so i'll have more frens! haha!

and mingjie, haha, wanna say sorry la if whatever negative comments i made abt ur looks or bag or clothes really offended u. heeZ. feel abit bad la so aplogise here la. heeZ. but hoh, u know there might some truth in them la since i said them! haha! joking la! anyway be nice to cheryl when u go lecture with her k or i'll personally hammer u! haha! and meet up for lunch k! ask william along la! haha.

and andrew tham! i haven seen u in ages la. stop thinking abt veronica la and trying to figure out what she is trying to say la! girls are just complicated pple! haha! so u better start appearing in church soon!

and charmaine i really miss u! i like haven seen u in ages sia! can u start appearing in my life again! haha.

actually just came back from my class chalet not very long ago. heeZ. quite fun catching up with everybody la though i just sat there and play mahjong throughout. haha. yes mahjong. boring life right. BUT we went KTV too. haha. anyway aranda chalet is really cool la. its like a hotel room. and had a great time with the girls too, bao chris hui. haha. had fun waking each other up in the morning though most of the time they were waking me up. just had alot of fun la! haha. its a great way to really relax b4 having to face the school term! heeZ.

PDL is starting and its rather scary that i have to be a cell leader again. its been a while since i last led cell. dunno if it'll turn out well. anyway wanna welcome my new members into PSALMS! GILLIAN LYDIA AND PINGHONG! haha! hope u all will feel welcome! muahaha!

thats all for now i guess. got PDL facilitor training tmr! hope it'll be fun!

2005-07-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

watched ET just now. then when it came to the last part, where elliot hug ET goodbye, then they turn the cameras to the mother. i was just wondering what she was thinking abt, and if i were i would be thinking "this is one of the most valuable lesson abt love that my son has learn". i would be very happy la if i was the mother. heeZ. just something to think abt la.

anyway going chalet tmr! haha. dunno whether it will be a flop anot coz i am the one the oragnizer sia. sighZ. hope all goes well. if it doesnt i m not going to plan anymore. heeZ.

i have gum infection sia! my gums are growing to the same height as my teeth liao! this is bad. i m going to the dentist straight after i come back from the chalet!

anyway its biddin time again! and i m thinking should i continue to minor in TR. coz if i m then i have to take TR2202 and its on wed from 6pm to 9pm and wed is suppose to be my free day. sighZ i really dunno how. should i look at the long term (coz a minor will look good in my CV) or short term(i get a free day). i really dunno! tough decision u know.

sighZ.

2005-07-23T16:48:00.000+08:00

was watching a japanese show just now. it was very interesting and touching, it wasnt abt the BGR kinda of love that made it so touching but it was the father's love for his child that made me cry.

the child is a female reporter whose beliefs is to report the truths of the society to the world(japan). her father is the right-hand man of this minister who was taking bribes. so his daughter went all the way out to investigate the truth and in the end, she went right up to interview him during a life telecast of the evening news. so she went directly and ask him did he bribe the people on behalf of the minister, then he ask her back, what is the most important to you? (by this time, she was on the verge of crying already) and she answered "my beliefs" (her belief is to report the truth the people) then he admitted that he took the bribes. then the minister came in and ask him what was happening. and the minister accused the daughter of getting evidence regarding the corruption case thru illegal methods and asked her if this should be the behaviour of a reporter. but in the end, the father spoke up for the daughter and said that she made the right choice in doing what she has done. when everybody had left, he touched her head and say "you are my pride and my joy" and this pt of time, my tears just started rolling. how great was his love for her then even if she caused him to lose his job, he still love her so much. i was really very touched!

anyway i've ended work already! haha. i m glad la. its really very stressful there coz i really feel that i didnt do a good job. yeah. sighZ. and guess what it was only on my last day that i really taught meaning i wrote on the board and taught an entire class, and it was the only time where i really scolded a kid. but i was very scared la when i scolded him. i really wanted to slap him anyway. haiZ dunno la. heeZ
but i really feel relieved that it is over! no more 7am! haha. now i m really looking forward to chalet on monday! and baoling is comin my house on sunday night to stay!. haha.

and i miss round 0 of the bidding! arghZ!

2005-07-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

heyhey. its been a long while sia. since i last blog seriously. heeZ

anyway its my last week at the studentcare. haha. and I m glad! seriously glad! and its amazing how the kids can be like angels for minute by telling u that they miss u, and ask u not to leave and also to ask u to come back next year, but yet little monsters the next minute by driving u up the wall by not doing work and everything. argh! really feel like pulling out their hair sometimes though some of the boys already have minimal hair. haha. anyway through this entire month or rather 4 weeks i have improved tremedously on my oragami skills, at this pt i can fold a crane, a dolphin, a piano, a butterfly, a rabbit all out of coloured paper!i have folded like thousands of cranes la. and let me tell u the funniest part, they will come ask me for coloured paper, ask me to fold something for them, then in the end come back to me and tell me they give it to ME! i feel like a fool la. its like i buy the paper, i fold the paper and i give it to myself. ARGH! kill me! haha. and i realise i cant do chinese anymore not even pri1 chinese. this is bad sia! haha. and let me tell u, i can tell u what a preposition, an adverb, a verb, a connector etc. is now. haha. I have been doin it everyday loh. and my mental sums is definately improving sia! haha. everyday i have to get them to sit down to do their work, then mark their books then chase them to do corrections! and let me tell u chasing them is not at all fun loh. and when i teach and mark the books, i nv use the answer key coz its too troublesome, so now i can memorise some of the answers already. argh!

but of coz to everything there is definately a positive side. and for this: THEY ARE JUS SO CUTE! haha. and they are so amusing, u should just sit there and listen to their conversations esp the p1s, u'll die trying to not to laugh in their faces. haha. o o o, just yesterday, baoling was teaching this pri 1 girl, then that girl out of nowhere told her : I think Ms Wong(which is me) is pretty leh. (haha) then baoling went: HUH!!!!( in the wth kinda way)then she continued with: then me leh? the girl replied: u not pretty, u are cute but ms wong very pretty. haha! baoling debated whether to tell me this news the entire yesterday. haha. but being baoling, she told me la. haha. i m really flattered la. haha! very amused at the same time! and i thought i wear till very "lok kok" to work already. haha.

haiZ. so this friday i really have no idea if i would be sad or happy leaving that place. but truly its a place of joy la. heeZ. but of pain as well. haha! but i'll definately miss it!. heeZ. becoz the children just accept u for who u are, u dun have to wear a mask in front of them and they will still love u(as long as u dun scold them la. heeZ).

anyway i'll be going for chalet next week! haha. my JC class chalet! really looking forward to it! hope it'll be fun sia! muahaha!

char and cheryl! dun forget baking day this saturday k!. muahahah!